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i had a good bday. i went and saw batman with tracy, and we had a good time. we went and played pool afterwards, with andy and sam. and we went bar hoping a little. i didn't get real wasted though. she came home from college station friday night, after work, to hang out with me. then made me a badass salmon dinner on sunday. so that was really awesome.
things have been looking up. we just had some walls painted in our townhome, and we're just trying to save up a lot of money for our hawaii trip. i am currently pleased, and working on being a better person!
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[08 Jul 2008|12:21am] |
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i can't believe how bad i fucked up. all because of some fucking alcohol. i am so fucking pissed at myself it's unreal. i wish i could just snap my fingers and take it all back, but i can't. i have to live with the fact that i fucked up the best relationship i have ever had, and most likely ever will. fuck!!! i hurt her so fucking bad. emotionally, and it tears me up.
i can't live like this, and i feel like i owe her my life or something. i just want her to forgive me and let me make things right. but i don't even know if that's what's going to happen or not. we are so perfect for each other. i can't see her just walking away. maybe that's not what i want to see and maybe it's happening, idk. but i need to try to show her that she is my life, and i am forever sorry and will never fuck up again. what the fuck is wrong with me??!? am i just that scared of being happy, that i have to go and fuck it up??
why is that the norm for me? i don't want to do that shit anymore god fucking damn it man. i am so fucking pissed at myself. it almost comical how fucking dumb i can be sometimes.
but, i have learned a very valuable lesson.
i miss her. when she hugged me the other day, i felt my heart beat again.
and it hasn't felt like that since she's been gone.
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i am fucking stuffed oh my fucking god.
awesome.
i am going to the zoo today, it's free, and so am i .
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[11 Nov 2006|12:34pm] |
i am fucking excited.
my girlfriend is coming back today from her long ass road trip.
she flew out to north carolina to help her friend move back to texas.
sweet!
get a new laptop today, recorded some new music.
alien strobe light is fucking awesome.
if you guys wnna check it out, go ahead.
http://www.myspace.com/tomasatx
i love this new band i'm in.
and deep 6 gets to open for otep!
things are looking up.
now, if only i had some cash to pay this stupid fucking cell phone bill
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[02 Nov 2006|07:50pm] |
I have a new girlfriend.
her name is tracy.
she is absolutly amazing.
i am sooooo fucking happy.
she is cool as fuck.
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[21 Oct 2006|04:27am] |
omg i knew it, i knew it, omg i knew it!!!!
fucking knew it!!! hahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahaahahah
;)
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[04 Oct 2006|12:36am] |
yeah!!!
had fun tonight.
i get paid tomorrow.
then mastodon on thursday!!!
score.
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[25 Sep 2006|11:45am] |
troy's home
with his fucked up foot
i am sore
i haven't eaten in 2 days
i'm very upset
i'm just gonna do nothing today, again
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[12 Sep 2006|02:49am] |
i'm gonna see if things start to fall in my lap.
i can never get what i want.
so i'm just gonna wait it out.
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[11 Sep 2006|02:34pm] |
tool yeah
some more bad shit went down
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god damn, you're head is soooo far up your own fucking ass. that you look normal
it completes you..
i can't wait for tool.
me and some friends are gonna be baked on the lawn.
should be a good time. :)
god damn i wish someone would answer their phone, for fucks sake.
sake, not SAKE. but pear sake does sounds good mmmmmmmm
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[04 Sep 2006|03:15pm] |
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i will never understand why people pass up bigger and better opportunities, because of a comfort zone. i just guess i will never understand it.
you can never be too comfortable.
things always change, and that's what life is about.
unexpected change.
so you can never plan for it.
so go with the flow.
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knowing the things i know...will make is very hard for me, not to overstep my boundaries.
but rules are always meant to be broken. it keeps things exciting!
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[29 Aug 2006|05:28pm] |
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i just a read a journal post that made me blush so hardcore.
damn. wow.. damn
:)
hehe!!
i can't stop smiling.
just waiting to talk to you.
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[27 Aug 2006|04:48am] |
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:)
i had another great time tonight.
damn i love asa. it's always good to see that mother fucker.
gonna jam tomorrow. so i am fucking sleeping in hardcore.
must find mota.
i am not high and very very dry.
but otherwise fine.
we got a good time at metalfest. damn i can't wait to blow some people away.
for reals.
if anyone needs tickets, i got some.
dirt ass cheap!
check this shit out.
megedeth, lamb of god, opeth, arch enemy.
sept 19th in oklahoma city, ok.
i am about 70% sure i am going to this!!
oh yeah!
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[25 Aug 2006|12:42am] |
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been a great month so far. i am broke as shit. but happier than i have been on a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time.
the old saying is true.
man i've been thinking about so much shit lately.
which is cool, cuz i might have a moment of clarity afterwards.
i am excited about things to come.
i feel really great about myself, that even somethings can't even bring me down.
:)
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[24 Aug 2006|03:41am] |
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i had waaaaaaaaaaaaaay to much fun tonight.
rum.....is great!
pollo loco is bon!
i ate till i burst.
then defeated contra!
i haven't smiled like this in forever.
xoxooxoxoxoxox
thanks
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[21 Aug 2006|09:13pm] |
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i am so happy.
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